May you learn to forgive yourself ….
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May you walk a Lighted Path - May you fight for truth - YOUR truth & not someone else’s.”
~ Marisha Pessl
I sat in a different church pew last Sunday. By Gods Grace. We was there for 4H - but what I took away from the message was even more.
“Judgment” can be our own worse enemy. Judging not really others. But constantly criticizing our own self. Beating ourselves to a pulp for the wrong we’ve done. For the mistakes made. The hard lessons through life.
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We are all Humans. We are all set up for trials and tribulations. We got lost along the way - I know I have. More times than I can count. It’s what the Devil strives for. To take us off the Path provided by the lord. Luring you away from the “good things” - and crossing you onto this dark deceiving side… it’s scary. It’s even scarier once you’ve realized the wrongs you’ve done. The shame that comes. The embarrassment- it haunts you worse than a childhood nightmare. It’s burned into you & that’s exactly how the Devil wins. He keeps you’re mindset focused on that…. Thinking you are no longer worthy of the Lords Love & forgiveness because you can’t allow yourself to forgive yourself.
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I had no intentions of even blogging today - let alone sharing. But as I type away I feel a weight lifted off my chest. That just maybe - maybe my hard lessons might reach someone else today …
I’ve sat in shame for nearly 2 years … of nearly losing all the things that mattered most to me- All because I got lost along the way. The way the Lord had paved just for me - I no longer for a long time felt worthy of anything - or anyone God had brought into my life
I became this ugly bitter miserable shell of myself - I’ve become this reclusive hermit. Hiding from the world ( or Well in our area anyway - I hate leaving the farm to put it bluntly!)
The devil had my mindset so warped that I could no longer find the truth in the lord’s word - something I’ve really struggled with on a personal level. I no longer get welcomed in my church (my mindset not theirs!!) but it was the Devils Lie that has kept me from going the last 2 years.
Mistakes are going to happen … it’s how we are designed. We are humans not angels not yet anyways - but actions speak louder than words …. Are you living Gods word? I know I fail miserably - I try … and at the end of the Day the Lord understands.. even when we do not.
The Devil wants you to stay in this “constant hate of yourself” …. And that’s where I’ve been for two years - hating myself.
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